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Caged Eyes

Caged Eyes: An Air Force Cadet’s Story of Rape and Resilience – Lynn K. Hall

As a young girl with big dreams, Lynn Hall set her sights on the stars. She steadfastly pursued her goal of becoming an astronaut, holding herself to incredibly high academic goals, maintaining physical fitness, and becoming thoroughly involved in the local arm of the Civil Air Patrol all in preparation for her application to the Air Force Academy. Nothing would prevent her from becoming an Air Force pilot, not even when her flight instructor began molesting and sexually assaulting her. When she did eventually arrive at the legendary Academy, she felt she had finally escaped a difficult past and found a world of opportunities. In addition to dealing with all the typical transitions from high school to college, Lynn also faced grueling physical training, intentionally demeaning behavior from upperclassman, and blatant sexism. When seeking to reestablish a sense of independence and passion, Lynn met with an upperclassman to learn more about additional flight opportunities. When he raped her, she was not only betrayed by this student, but also by the doctors from whom she sought care, the community she had worked so hard to become part of, and the institution she had revered since childhood. She became infected with herpes, which turned into viral meningitis and ultimately untreated encephalitis, leaving her with a chronic headache and a multitude of difficulties. Despite struggling through another year of cadet training, Lynn was eventually deemed incapable of becoming a pilot due to medical complications, and she began reassembling her life piece by piece in pursuit of healing herself and helping others.

“Caged Eyes” by Lynn K. Hall is the kind of story that hits you like the shock of jumping into freezing water. You know what’s coming, and you know the eventual outcome, but that foresight does nothing to lessen the impact. Unapologetic and unrelenting, Hall recounts her story of rape and sexual assault with straightforward candor. She is not apologetic for naming the harm caused to her by the people, professionals and institutions that she turned to for help and support, and neither is she apologetic for the discomfort caused by sharing her story publicly. Hall’s own experience is not exempt from this direct tone, and she discloses the shame, guilt, and emotional turmoil she felt at each encounter and each betrayal. Her self-awareness and insight into her own thought processes and emotional responses humanize and personalize her experience of sexual violence within a military institution. Although her story consists of unbelievable pain and suffering, it is simultaneously steeped in optimism and hope. Even when faced with insurmountable obstacles, Hall invariably returns to her belief in her ability to survive, thrive, and achieve great things.

Wow. It’s hard to find the exact right words to describe this book, but it is certainly a must-read. On the condition that you have strong support networks that are easily accessible, and possibly some distractions lined up to take your mind off the unbelievable mistreatment and neglect Hall endured at the hands of the people and institutions she trusted. Heartwrenching and heartfelt, this book will move you in all directions at the same time. Do what you can to prepare yourself, but there is nothing you can do to lessen the shock of her story.

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Spice Cake Cupcakes with Caramel Buttercream Frosting

If you’ve ever wondered what coffeecake would taste like covered in deliciously sweet frosting, then this is the recipe for you!

Cake ingredients
1 ¼ C packed brown sugar
½ C granulated sugar
2/3 C shortening
2 ¼ C flour
1 tsp baking soda
½ tsp salt
½ tsp nutmeg
½ tsp allspice
1 tsp vanilla
3 eggs
1 C chopped pecans

Frosting ingredients
½ C butter
1 C packed brown sugar
¼ C milk
2 ½ C powdered sugar
½ tsp vanilla

Cupcake directions

Whisk together dry ingredients (flour, baking soda, salt, nutmeg, and allspice)

Cream together shortening with both sugars

Add in eggs, vanilla, and buttermilk

Add in dry ingredients, beat until just combined

Stir in chopped pecans with a spatula

Bake at 350 (bake time depends on size of pan)

Frosting directions

Melt the butter over low heat

Add in brown sugar and stir constantly for 2 minutes

Add in milk and bring to a rolling boil

Remove from heat and gradually whisk in powdered sugar and vanilla until smooth

(Add more powdered sugar or more milk for desired consistency)

Slather on copiously (this frosting don’t look pretty)


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